"...Three years ago we lost Macy . She was 13 years old then. On day 19 of her being lost I wrote to you . You prayed for my Macy . You told me angel wings wrapped around her and she would be found and was safe . That day !!! Macy was found . It was a miracle ! I have never forgotten what you you did for Macy and I . Macy is now 17 .. On Tuesday night I was told to put her to sleep . Macy had been struggling a lot for a good 6 months . I had taken her to the vet to see what was best for her . I had Macy from 22 years of age . She was my shadow . My soul mate , my beautiful little dog that never complained when put in the back of the car with 3 fighting kids , no matter how Ill she was at the end . She had to put up with a lot but was only happy when with me . I took her most places if she was well enough . She struggled so much but still wanted to come : I feel so saddened that her life was ended the way it was ... I am a busy mum of 3 and was not coping with the load of 3 kids and running a household on my own . I bought Macy her hot chicken and sausage rolls .. Took her everywhere but feel I didn't nurture her enough at the end :( On the day she left the kids were fighting in the back of the car . I hadn't had much time for her that day . I stopped at the park to give her some fresh air as she slept most of the day. When her weary body walked from the car her legs began to quiver . She could barely stand . I picked her up and put her back in the car . When I got home I took the children from the car . My husband pulled in so I asked him to get Macy . She must have been I so much pain :(. When my husband got to her she was collapsed . He brought her inside and I took her and lay her flat on her bed . I wrapped my jumper Around her,put her in the car and took her to the vet . This vet I valued . I had chosen him especially for her and knew he was the best for her . When he met her the last time he had Eskimo kissed her to the nose . I sat and waited so scared . I had a awful feeling . All of a sudden her body quivered .. I picked her up and she vomited :( The vet finally came . He took her from her bed and put her to the floor . He sat on the floor with his hed between his knees but eyes up just enough to see what Macy would do . She couldn't move . Not even to me . He said it wasn't good and that this was the beginning of her dying . I sobbed and I asked for his valued opinion . He said it was best to put her to sleep . I asked if I could wait until the morning and he said for her it's better now . I braced myself . Sat with her , cried and told her I loved her so so much .. I called the vet back .. Held her tight and he lay her to sleep .. She let out a cry I never had heard before. Esther . I feel so sad . Did I make the right decision ? Is she alright . She was never happy unless she was with me . I had her ash's returned today . She left me on Tuesday at 7pm . I haven't rested in days . I feel like part of me is missing and just need to know that she wasn't upset with me as I had such little time for her at the end . I was hoping you could pray for my Macy . Your prayers are so special ...Please keep Clare in your prayers.